away from the noise...

I was reading Zaobao in the morning and saw this:

妻子连搭车去认尸的钱都没有…… 跳轨男子山穷水尽走绝路

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这4个月来，他失业在家，一家4口依靠妻子500多元微薄的收入过活。他们的三餐开始成问题，近日来常以快熟面充饥。

眼见水电费、杂费和大儿子的学费越欠越多，累积超过1000多元，妻子心急如焚，嘱咐他得尽快找份工作，否则他们肯定会陷入困境。

前天早上，他答应给妻子一笔钱，缴付所拖欠的款项。
　　
傍晚，他递了9元给小儿子，当作给大儿子填补车资卡和他们母子3人晚餐的费用，然后外出。临走前，他交代小儿子：“爸爸出去工作了，你要好好照顾妈妈，你们要保重。”
　　
当天晚上10时左右，他跳入裕华园站的地铁轨道，被西向列车碾成三截，当场丧命。在场的目击者说，他是在地铁列车进站时，突然跳下轨道的。
　　
死者是46岁的陈如川，生前和家人住在文礼一带一个没有布置可言的三房式组屋，他和妻子育有两名13岁及15岁的儿子。
　　
他是个散工，之前当餐厅助手养家糊口。不过，他后来失业，至今已有三四个月没工作了。

他的遗孀林仙花（43岁，电子厂女工）从上门的警员接获噩号后，欲哭无泪，只怨叹丈夫竟自私得将他们留下。
　　
警员叫她隔天早上到殓尸房认领尸体，她的第一个反应是：“我连搭车的钱都没有，要怎样去殓尸房？”后来，查案人员自掏腰包，给了她5元的车费。

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I'm just so saddened by this... The world has so many people who are so broken and desperate for help... This is a reminder to remember the poor and the needy, and not be consumed by other pursuits in life.

"There will always be poor people in the land. Therefore I command you to be openhanded toward your brothers and toward the poor and needy in your land." - Deuteronomy 15:11

serious monday blues...

woke up this morning and simply do not feel like working... it's like u just want to let out a loud "urgh!" and hope that it's still Sat...

well... i did actually... (the sighing)

with much effort, i dragged myself out of bed and began my morning routine...

since i missed my bus, and i really don't want to spent on cab... i walked to my shuttle bus stop under the hot sun.

no point sulking the whole day... i need to fight against that... i need to give thanks! for all the minor things such as the clothes/ shoes/ bags... to my job (it was hard), my office, my bosses (this was harder), to the people in my life... and God himself. I know even if there's nothing in me to give thanks for, His love for me is worth giving thanks for...

on a side note, i only ran for 15-20mins today... i really don't like to run after the sun sets... it's like even the trees are planning to rest after a long day (of providing good shade for man) but i'm still trying to work hard on running. no motivation le!

tomorrow, the workday battle is still on. i know i just have to hang in there. uu, jiayou, fight the right battle.

I spent the last 2 weeks of December 2005 doing housework - washing laundry, changing bed linen and tidying up my little cozy corner... sometimes, it's therapeutic to do some housework... like cleaning up and compartmentalize things you have... since it is easier to do that for tangible stuff rather than intangible stuff - for instance, life.

I had been feeling moody for almost the whole of December and wasn't really sure where I want to go and what I want to do in 2006... Perhaps, I just got myself into the spiral of nua-ness and sian-ness where I just don't want to think about it...

Anyway, the good news is, I have decided that I need to climb out of that hole where nua-ness and sian-ness dwell harmoniously... I need to build up my momentum for the race which I want to finish strong (not rat race of course)...

Difficult it may be, but I will try...