away from the noise...

I'm getting a bit worried.

I wonder if I can do it on the first Sunday morning of Dec.

Lack of practise equates lack of confidence.

Have been slacking since early Sep...

As the rain comes and the haze clears, I need to push myself to run.

At least, to build up stamina for my 1st 10km.

Yea, to finish well.

persistence ~ continuing and repeating behaviour

i always feel that this is something i lack... not just in difficult times where i need to push myself to do accomplish a goal... so, i've signed up for SHAPE RUN 2006! though it's just 5km, i hope to use that train my mental, spiritual and physical health.

so far, i only ran thrice in the past week... each run is about 25mins... not sure how far i ran each time, i estimate it was about 3km... hopefully by end of may i can complete 5km in 40 mins. Let's see how...

As I was walking home after work today, I looked up the sky and gave a sigh of relief.

Just want to give thanks for His grace and protection everyday...

"Who am I that You are mindful of me? That You hear me, when I call."

I was waiting for bus at Pasir Ris this afternoon and happened to see swarms of NS men alighting from the buses that ferried them from the jetty. Cheers of freedom and joy were heard as they made their way down. Some of the guys teased their friends whose girlfriends were there waiting for them. Somehow, the sight of them activated my memory nodes... gosh, i was reminded of my past relationship.

Did i feel sad?
Not really... Nostalgic, yes. Strange. I haven't feel like this for a long time...

I wasn't thinking of the person (I always think that the end of the relationship was a blessing in disguise), but rather, I'm thinking about myself... how I've moved on from then to now...

Were there feelings of loneliness?
Definitely.

Do I look forward to a new relationship?
Yes, but with uncertainty.

The desires of my heart He knows. Before I even ask, He already knew.

in a few days time, i'll be exactly 25 years old... woa!

looking at my life, what i am doing now... my job, my lifestyle, etc. was not the picture i drew in my mind 10 years ago... when i envision myself at the age of 25.

i expected myself to be holding a well-paying job, and perhaps still dreaming to become a newscaster on channel 8. hahaha! otherwise, i could be a SQ flight attendant... carrying a big LV luggage with me... flying across the ocean and mountains and enjoying myself in London, Capetown, New Zealand, Tokyo... continue to complain about the nature of the job, yet still holding on to it because of the opportunities to travel, to experience cultures, and because i want to be envied by many...

but here i am, holding a very stable job, start work at 930am (instead of official 9am), seldom work beyond 7pm... in a low-level stress work environment... have more than 1 hr lunches on average... sit in front of the computer everyday, looking at long strings of numbers and trying to make sense out of them :p

i wondered to myself, is that what i want?

i know there are times when i'm still 'gian' about becoming a air stewardess, when my sis tells me about when the next recruitment is coming up, and that they are in shortage of staff. I thought to myself, maybe i should go for the interview and be rejected by them, then tell myself it's God's will. hahahaha...

anywae, just now, i was reminded of this prayer which i prayed when i preparing for my graduation exams... "Lord, i need a job which allows me to have time for you. " i did not ask for a high-paying nor high profile job... and God answered my prayer. i didn't have to go for interviews after interviews... the offer just landed in front of me. i remembered myself giving thanks to God who heard my prayer.

"This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. " 1 John 5:14

this birthday, i'm going to do the same... ask not of my own desires, but His will to be done.

I love to look at planes taking off...

My office is located @ Changi Business Park, so i get to see planes taking off n fly past me everyday... at the balcony... when i walk out of the building for lunch... when i wait for my shuttlebus in the evening to go home...

Mm.. Very therapeutic...

Do not let this Book of the law depart from your mouth, mediate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.
Joshua 1:8

I look to YOU,
YOU're my healer..
I look to YOU,
YOU restored my soul..
I look to YOU,
Jesus, my redeemer..

If I have not loved, I'm nothing.

If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. (I Cor 13:1-3)

Saw this from wee and yenew who got it from fur... haha...

Yuling

Honest, dependable and practical you tend to have a fairly conservative but determined approach to life. Your intelligence and wisdom means that you are sought out for guidance and advice. Gifted in communication you are philosophical and intuitive and are usually a traveller both mentally and physically. People respect you for your patience, discretion and integrity.

Sarah (Baptism Name)

Princess : Hebrew

Balanced and fairminded you possess the ability to use sound reason and judgement when determined and decisive action is required. Persuasive and logical you tend to be an influential figure in your circle of friends and associates. You are extremely adaptable and this is necessary as you seem to be continually being presented with decisions of a life altering nature.


How about combining the 2 with my surname?


Sarah Goh Yuling

You have a practical, determined and serious approach to life and are willing to accept great responsibilities in order to achieve your ambitions. You have a quick mind and the ability to create tangible results with your ideas. Possessing discipline, tenacity and courage you are able to overcome any challenges and accomplish goals. You are well liked and respected by friends and colleagues.


Let's try...


UU

You are honest and fair-minded with a perceptive analytical mind and a keen sense of justice. A lover of art, music and beauty you have refined taste. Although you are prepared to fight for your beliefs you are a peacemaker, hating discord of any kind. You are home and family oriented and when entertaining are a charming and gracious host. With your warm and generous nature you attract many friends bringing joy into their lives.

Lingmeimei

Confident in yourself with a strong mind and creative flair you have the ability to apply your ideas to practical purposes. Your wisdom and balance means that others seek you out for counsel and guidance. You set high objectives for yourself based on your idealism and then achieve them with boundless energy and determination. You are loved for your understanding and positive attitude to life.


Consistent or not? Of course no lor... Hahaha...